Below are the 13 most recent journal entries recorded in Ani Allomai's LiveJournal:

Saturday, June 6th, 2009
4:33 pm	Front Rock on Vert Extension at Volcano Skatepark (Big Island) The solitary magician remembers his formula on borrowed wings. He dreampt of his loneliness, and of the devil, and of the directions of lines in the sky. Photo by Isaac Frazer. (Colors edited.) Supreme Phoenix falling reversal echos silent Storks of Blood. Inner warrior exhalation prayer, give thanks to Hawaii lineage. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 30th, 2008
12:54 pm	My Swan Inspired by the practice of Liber Resh vel Helios sub figura CC My swan-boat parts dark waters, & I      Have seen death creep up to my soul.      But will it ever touch me? Oh! My swan parts the sea of the night-sky. Beauty & love both pass through an eye.      I've seen at least a single friend go      Into the night yet meet Sol again! Oh! My swan parts the sea of the night-sky. For She is all that is not I      And I am the sun's young inferno,      Encircled by infinite waters. Oh! My swan parts the Sea of the Night-Sky. (9 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, April 18th, 2008
8:28 am	L.J. MindMap ( Click here to see! ) (Comment on this)
Sunday, April 6th, 2008
8:41 pm	On the vast canvas of the Self, the picture of manifold worlds is painted by the Self itself. And that Supreme Self, seeing but itself, enjoys Great Delight. --Sankaracarya, Svatmanirupanam, 95 (Comment on this)
Friday, March 28th, 2008
1:42 pm	"I had a dream... "...that a man was sentenced to death for attempting suicide." --Mark "Kaivalya" Smith-Arcarese R.I.P., brother Kaivalya. (10 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, March 24th, 2008
4:41 pm	"None of us has lived... ...the life that he intended." --Joseph Campbell (3/26/1904 - 10/30/1987), The Power of Myth: Part 6 of 6, "Masks of Eternity" (Comment on this)
4:10 pm	The Angel of Death with the Proud & the Devout Man The Arabian Nights, Cap. XV It is related, O auspicious King, that one of the olden monarchs was once minded to ride out in state with the officers of his realm and the grandees of his retinue and display to the folk the marvels of his magnificence. So he ordered his lords and emirs equip them therefor and commanded his keeper of the wardrobe to bring him of the richest of raiment, such as befitted the King in his state, and he bade them bring his steeds of the finest breeds and pedigrees every man heeds. Which being done, he chose out of the raiment what rejoiced him most and of the horses that which he deemed best, and donning the clothes, together with a collar set with margarites and rubies and all manner jewels, mounted and set forth in state, making his destrier prance and curvet among his troops and glorying in his pride and despotic power. And Iblis came to him and, laying his hand upon his nose, blew into his nostrils the breath of hauteur and conceit, so that he magnified and glorified himself and said in his heart, "Who among men is like unto me?" And he became so pulled up with arrogance and self-sufficiency, and so taken up with the thought of his own splendor and magnificence, that he would not vouchsafe a glance to any man. Presently there stood before him one clad in tattered clothes and saluted him, but he returned not his salaam, whereupon the stranger laid hold of his horse's bridle. "Lift thy hand!" cried the King. "Thou knowest not whose bridle rein it is whereof thou takest hold." Quoth the other, "I have a need of thee." Quoth the King, "Wait till I alight, and then name thy need." Rejoined the stranger, "It is a secret and I will not tell it but in thine ear." So the King bowed his head to him and he said, "I am the Angel of Death and I purpose to take thy soul." Replied the King, "Have patience with me a little, whilst I return to my house and take leave of my people and children and neighbors and wife." "By no means so," answered the Angel. "Thou shalt never return nor look on them again, for the fated term of thy life is past." So saying, he took the soul of the King (who fell off his horse's back dead) and departed thence. Presently the Death Angel met a devout man, of whom Almighty Allah had accepted, and saluted him. He returned the salute, and the Angel said to him, "O pious man, I have a need of thee which must be kept secret." "Tell it in my ear," quoth the devotee, and quoth the other, "I am the Angel of Death." Replied the man: "Welcome to thee! And praised be Allah for thy coming! I am aweary of awaiting thine arrival, for indeed long hath been thine absence from the lover which longeth for thee." Said the Angel, "If thou have any business, make an end of it," but the other answered, saying, "There is nothing so urgent to me as the meeting with my Lord, to whom be honor and glory!" And the Angel said, "How wouldst thou fain have me take thy soul? I am bidden to take it as thou willest and choosest." He replied, "Tarry till I make the wuzu ablution and pray, and when I prostrate myself, then take my soul while my body is on the ground." Quoth the Angel, "Verily, my Lord (be He extolled and exalted!) commanded me not to take thy soul but with thy consent and as thou shouldst wish, so I will do thy will." Then the devout man made the minor ablution and prayed, and the Angel of Death took his soul in the act of prostration and Almighty Allah transported it to the place of mercy and acceptance and forgiveness. (Comment on this)
Friday, December 7th, 2007
10:51 pm	Legions lose less-interesting lives. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, November 22nd, 2007
2:22 am	"Nothingness...with Sparkles"; Stars on the Cosmic Sea "For nothing is fixed, forever and forever and forever, it is not fixed; the earth is always shifting, the light is always changing, the sea does not cease to grind down rock. Generations do not cease to be born, and we are responsible to them because we are the only witnesses they have. The sea rises, the light fails, lovers cling to each other, and children cling to us. The moment we cease to hold each other, the sea engulfs us and the light goes out." --James Baldwin (Comment on this)
Thursday, October 4th, 2007
1:29 pm	Krishnamurti's Method of Freeing Humanity Unconditionally "Is there decision at all? Decision implies choice, you see. Choice implies a mind that's confused between this & that.... A mind that sees clearly has no choice. It doesn't decide. It acts.... "With responsibility goes love, care, attention.... "The mother depends on the child. And the child depends on the mother, or the father--whatever it is. So that dependence is cultivated. Not only between the father & mother, but 'depend on a teacher', 'depend on somebody to tell you what to do', 'depend on your guru'. Gradually, the child, the man, is incapable of standing alone. & therefore you say 'I must depend on my wife for my comfort, for my sex, my this & that & the other thing. I'm lost without her, & I'm lost without my guru, my teacher.' It becomes so ridiculous. When the feeling of responsibility exists, all this disappears. You are responsible: For your behavior, for the way you bring up your children, for the way you treat a dog, a neighbor, nature--Everything is in your hands. Therefore, you have to become astonishingly carefull what you do. Careful. Not 'I must not do this I must do that'. Care. That means affection, that means consideration, diligence. All that goes with responsibility, which present society totally denies.... "So, when you feel responsible, there is a flowering of real affection, a flowering of care for a child. And you don't train him by cultivating or conditioning him to go & kill another for the sake of your country. O! That is important! So, we come to a point where a human being as he is now--so conditioned to be irresponsible--What are the serious people going to do with the irresponsible people? Education, politics, religion--Every thing is making human beings irresponsible. I'm not exagerating--This is so. I see this as a human being. I say 'what am I to do?'. You follow, Sir? What is my responsibility in the face of the irresponsible? "Then from that question arises: You can't do anything about the irresponsible. No, Sir. Something strange takes place. Something strange takes place, which is: Consciousness--the irresponsible consciousness is one thing, & the consciousness of responsibility is another. Now, when the human being is totally responsible, that responsibility unconsciously enters into the irresponsible mind.... "Suppose I'm irresponsible, you're responsible. You can't do anything consciously with me. The more you actively operate on me, I resist.... I react violently, I build a wall against you, I hurt you, I do all kinds of things. You see that you cannot do anything consciously, actively...planned, which is what they're all trying to do. But if you can talk to me--to my unconscious...'cause the unconscious is much more active, much more alert, much more--sees the danger much quicker than the conscious, so it's much more sensitive. So if you can talk to me--to the unconscious--that operates. So you don't actively, designedly attack the irresponsible. They have done it, & they have made a mess of it. Whereas if you talk to me, but your whole inward attention is to show how irresponsible I am, what does responsibility mean? You care! In other words, you care for me! You care for me because I am irresponsible! Therefore you care for me, & therefor you're watching not to hurt me. You follow? In that way you penetrate very, very deeply into my unconscious, & that operates unknowingly when I suddenly say 'my god how irresponsible'. You follow? That operates! "I have seen this, Sir, in operation. Because, I've talked for 50 years, unfortunately or fortunately, to large audiences." --Jiddu Krishnamurti, 2/19/1974, A Wholly Different Way of Living, Part 4 of 18: Responsibility & Relationship (9 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 20th, 2007
5:32 pm	The Lie Pain for feeling, Blindness to the eye. Regret for asking When no one knows why. Grief for a mistake, And disease for a try. Despair for the learning That no one knows why. Suicide for the wrong word, Life prepared to die: These I have tasted And No One knows why. Thought is a mistake, and personality a lie. "Self" is Annihilation, Only No One knows why. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 17th, 2007
12:34 am	Twilight In Memoriam C.L. My mind was touched by your body When I melted into your eye. Death! But your eye still sparkles to me When my thoughts climb alone in a starry night sky. Never did I find the line 'Tween the world of the body & that of the mind. (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 27th, 2007
1:02 am	My Oath to the Cosmos Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the law. I, who was born B.L.B. but am now A.O.A., = 72 = Change call on the Lord of the Universe to witness my Oath to the Cosmos: I, Anastasis, = 963 = Achad (Unity) bind in Union my self, humbly & irrevocably, solemnly swearing on All That Is, that I Will Survive All Change. I, Oiafoinix Allomai, = 963 = Achad (Unity) shall attain the Gnosis of Understanding that My Will be done, & that Thy Will be done, & that these be an Unity. Also, I, A.O.A., = 72 = Chesed (Jupiter, Joy) shall furthermore attain the True Gnosis of Understanding that this be the True Success & Prosperity --yea, even the True Joy-- of All That Is, & of My Very Self, & even of my Self incarnate who walks upon the Earth by the name Anastasis Oiafoinix Allomai = 1926 = Kleos ton Thanatou, Tlenai e Alethes Gnosis (Glory of Death, To Endure the True Gnosis). Love is the law, love under will. (9 Comments |Comment on this)